got fat but trying to lose some of the fucking pounds

So I am officially work-less (but not necessarily worthless) human being that exists by sucking the money out of my husband’s jeans pocket.
Since being officially unemployed since December 1, all I do is read books, cook and eat. And yes, I am pudgy now. In less than a month I gained 7 pounds from the [...]

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lesson learned (the hard way)

Lesson learned: If you’re pissed off at anyone in particular, or maybe even your life in general, never ever, ever, ever, ever (ever, ever!) go in front of the mirror and try to be a hairdresser. Inhale-exhale exercise works best.

Nothing says: I HATE MYSELF like cutting your bangs with scissors that you saw in your [...]

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crazy

sitting in the corner, alone and quiet,
she’s an image of what destruction is.
her gaze pierces your soul, your being.
her smile sends shiver to your spine.
but inside that harsh demeanor and
erratic behaviour is a calmness no one knows possible to possess.
that sudden blink of an eye shows a tenderness not known to mankind.
she is hostile, she is [...]

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This is it at last

Almost all the time that I spend in the office makes me wonder if I’m doing myself a favor by earning money or if I’m simply trying to kill myself because of stress.
I’ve been dying to leave my job for almost three agonizing years and the fact that I have too many bills to pay is [...]

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Girls I’ll Gladly Go Lesbian For

Well, what can I say? These girls have the best curves ever. I’ll kill for those legs and abs.
10. Angelina Jolie

Nothing says I AM DAMN CONFIDENT like Angelina Jolie. I am a huge fan of her tiger tattoos and I am thinking of getting one someday. (kung papayag si hubby)
She’s an accomplished actress, a great [...]

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Ouch

I am not in a good mood today. I look like one of the girls from your highschool years that try so hard to look like a vamp but in reality really look like a geek with eyes magnified or in my case shrink six times. Geez louise, I hate wearing glasses.
FYI, I’m [...]

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Where’s the slut train?

It was an ordinary day full of whining and swearing.
I feel out of breath.
I feel like the path that I’m supposed to follow leads to a dead-end.
I feel suffocated.
I feel numb.
I feel like all the air is sucked out of me.
I feel weak and I am on bended knee.
During my college days, I am so [...]

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just another sad realization

he was a former officemate.
i remember that we used to hang out and smoke together.
oh well.. those were the days.
“where are you working?” he said.
i smiled. i told him im still here.
Still bored. still tired. same old, same old.
“your one of the most patient people i ever met” he mumbled.
i know its not because i [...]

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maikling katanungan

bakit kaya ganon?
habang workmode ang drama ko sa desk ko, bigla akong napaisip ng malalim.
Ano kamo ang gumugulo sa isip ko?
Well.. bakit kaya yung mga delicious na papables ngayon kadalasan gayness? As in, bakit ayaw na ng mga papa nato sa ting mga gels?
As in, napapaisip ako. Oo, malalim. Dahil ang mga ganitong dilemma ay [...]

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a girl can only take so much

I just fucking received a call today informing me that I can’t transfer to the team that I applied for because I still have to render a 30-day turn-over period in my team before transferring to their team and that unfortunately, they need to fill the position ASAP.
What actually pissed me off is the fact [...]

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Drunk and Drunker

Last Saturday was my birthday. I have the opportunity to live in this sinful world for 27 years and still counting. Thank you Lord.
As for the party? Well, I asked my college friends to go at my place to drink vodka until they pass out. We started at around 3 pm and end by 7am [...]

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Interview. Interview. Interview.

I just had another interview. It sucks big time. It goes something like this:
Can you tell me more about yourself more or less?
More.
No, no, no… I meant can you tell me more about yourself.
Oh. Okay. My name is Alen and I am a rage-aholic. I love beating people up into a pulp. I enjoy blood [...]

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oh well..

I’ve been doing whatever it is I am doing for almost 5 years already. I’m bored and tired and basically all the combination of the two put together plus BURNOUT.
I’ve been trying my best to pat my back for every little achievement that I do since appreciating achievements in my team is out of the [...]

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haaay…

Konti na lang at malapit na.
Sana matapos na talaga dahil utang na loob, binabaha na kami.

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konting reaction lang

Bandang alas-10 ng umaga ng makita ko yung 3rd installment ng Katrina-Hayden video. Kung yung first 2 vids e puro pagpapa-cute at sayawan lang, etong 3rd e matindi. Grabe talaga. Talagang Hayden is a pig. Yun lang ang masasabi ko. Sobrang tama ba namang i-video ng patago? Kawawang mga babae. Hay naku talaga, alam kong [...]

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I’m almost back to hell and I hate it

I am dreading May 25th, the day when I need to be back in my hellhole. Everytime I look at calendars, my insides crawls and I’m stuck with this huge lump in my throat, tears threatening to fall everytime. I’m so sensitive these days that a single off-remark can make me cry, I binge (but [...]

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Daniel Smith – acquitted!

What do you think of the Court of Appeal’s decision of acquitting Daniel Smith? I have a very conflicting emotions toward this news. Sometimes I’m thinking that Smith did raped Nicole. I mean, who in their right mind will admittedly tell the whole world that she’s been raped if she’s not? Why tell the gory [...]

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I am a person with no sense. I kid you not! Seriously.

I dont know what’s wrong up with me lately. I find myself writing copious (my adjective sound a bit perverted for my taste) amount of indecent posts. I know they are suppose to be a good and intuitive post but at the same time, it makes me wonder: Am I suppressing any urge that it [...]

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