just another sad realization

he was a former officemate.
i remember that we used to hang out and smoke together.
oh well.. those were the days.
“where are you working?” he said.
i smiled. i told him im still here.
Still bored. still tired. same old, same old.
“your one of the most patient people i ever met” he mumbled.
i know its not because i [...]

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maikling katanungan

bakit kaya ganon?
habang workmode ang drama ko sa desk ko, bigla akong napaisip ng malalim.
Ano kamo ang gumugulo sa isip ko?
Well.. bakit kaya yung mga delicious na papables ngayon kadalasan gayness? As in, bakit ayaw na ng mga papa nato sa ting mga gels?
As in, napapaisip ako. Oo, malalim. Dahil ang mga ganitong dilemma ay [...]

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a girl can only take so much

I just fucking received a call today informing me that I can’t transfer to the team that I applied for because I still have to render a 30-day turn-over period in my team before transferring to their team and that unfortunately, they need to fill the position ASAP.
What actually pissed me off is the fact [...]

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Interview. Interview. Interview.

I just had another interview. It sucks big time. It goes something like this:
Can you tell me more about yourself more or less?
More.
No, no, no… I meant can you tell me more about yourself.
Oh. Okay. My name is Alen and I am a rage-aholic. I love beating people up into a pulp. I enjoy blood [...]

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oh well..

I’ve been doing whatever it is I am doing for almost 5 years already. I’m bored and tired and basically all the combination of the two put together plus BURNOUT.
I’ve been trying my best to pat my back for every little achievement that I do since appreciating achievements in my team is out of the [...]

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just another lunatic whining

Sometimes it takes a lot of my strength to fight the sudden urge to throw my things and walk out away from everything.
Ironically, the person or thing that makes me happy is the only person/thing that can make me angry. Like blood-lust angry.
It only takes one simple jab at my fluctuating mood to make me [...]

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Im not a fan of the rain

I guess I’m born to whine. If only its acceptable to put it in my resume under my SKILLS, I’ll put it in bold letters, and I’ll be damn proud of saying I’m good at whining. A lot.
I only like rainy days when I’m at home. Rainy seasons makes me sad, grumpy and a little [...]

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yet another whinge

I am not at work since yesterday. I hate to go back. I just hate being there.
I know I have to be greatful that I have a job and all, but I cant. I just cant.
I’m tired of taking all the bullshits. The fucking rules that they try to impose. Where the hell’s  the voice [...]

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Balahurang Bibig

Minsan mahirap talagang mapabayaan ko ang bibig ko na mamuno laban sa utak ko. O sa tenga ko. Pero minsan kasi kahit ayaw ko, wala akong magawa.
Bata pa lang ako, tila may sarili ng kaisipan ang bibig ko. May sariling prinsipyo. Mapusok. Matapang. Walang kinatatakutan, minsan nga lang ay nagiging mang-mang – siguro dahil magagalitin [...]

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