2011 is a shitty year for me. What sucks is that it’s not yet over. My mom died last March and my beloved nephew (who’s also my godson) is dying. You can also throw in a chunk of my heart in the blender because that’s what I feel most of the time now since I havent got time to grieve because I’m too busy taking care of my daughter. To be fair, she helps keep my mind from crying my guts out so YEY!!! Yeah, I guess tragic year is much appropriate than shitty.
I know that death is inevitable and the only thing to do is to accept it and that’s what I did (and what I’m doing now. I’ve been preparing myself now for my nephew… Gee, typing that is so morbid.)
Death in the family made me realize that life is really unpredictable. We dont have all the time in the world so we need to stop procrastinating. Procrastinating is actually my greatest downfall and I hate myself for that. I need to focus now.
My first goal is self-improvement. I need to declutter my life and the decluttering should start today!
I hope I wont get side-tracked again on this whole self-improvement thing.
I am re-acquainting myself on doing arts and crafts although I’m nowhere near creative. Ok, goal #2 is to stop putting myself down. I need to believe in myself more even if it means I have to patronize myself.
And because I have no idea how to end this post, I guess a sincere GOODNIGHT will do the trick? 
Aw man, that’s awful and terribly unfortunate to hear. I am deeply sorry for your mom and nephew. I hope that he gets better.
Death in a family is just the worse, isn’t it? However, I do notice that people who’ve had someone very close to them die, actually turned out to be more happy than people who haven’t experienced death of a close friend or a family member yet, in the long run. I really think it’s because once you’ve experienced that lost, you become so grateful and appreciative of everything you have, including your own life. And I hope that you get to that point as well.
Regardless, I’m sure it must be hard for you. Focus on your daughter, as what you’ve been doing. At least you guys have each other
Manahi ka na yun naman talaga pangarap mo dahil di ka umabot sa finals para sa 3 mananahi ng ating watawat…ideny mo!