There are certain things that happened in my life recently that made me realize that life is too short and that time flies and that we need to enjoy our days on earth as long as long as we’re alive.
Before getting married and having my baby, I used to live my life on the edge (so to speak). I was spontaneous and I live my life in the moment. I was careless, fearless and practically naive (or ignorant, I guess) and of course I was also young then. Looking back, it’s not a bad thing to live that way; however, now that I am a mom, certain things don’t really apply to me now. I can’t be careless anymore, because I am nourishing another human being and I dont want to put her at risk. Anyway, the reason why I’m saying this is simple – sometimes, I feel like I am such a snoozefest and that I need to spice up my day or my life more. Dont get me wrong, my married life is awesome, but I need to do things for myself, to satisfy the inner adventurer in me. My inner me kept shouting “I THIRST FOR AN ADVENTURE, FOR A QUEST, FOR A LIFE”.
And so I made a list of things that I want ~I NEED~ to do to make me less of a prude. Here goes.
• I want to start my own photo exhibit someday that will feature my works. I know I’m nowhere near a pro-photog but I love taking pics and I see something in my shots that I hope you’ll see too.
• I want to write a book about things that makes me happy. I am not good with words and most of the time, I have a hard time relaying or explaining myself or simply putting my thoughts into words so this will be a real challenge to me.
• I want to travel to learn the locals culture. I want to convince myself that I am LIVING MY LIFE and not just simply living, breathing, existing. We have a huge galaxy and that galaxy is only a speck in the entire universe, so I dont want to be just a speck. I want to be THE SPECK that shines. I want to teach whoever I meet about the things I know and I want to learn things that they know in return.
• I want to do voluntary work that will help other people before I die. I want to be useful.
• I want to do street photography. I want to capture the simple things and make them into an artform. I want to look into my portfolios and know that I experience things. I know anyone can do streetphotography, but sad fact of life is that we are all tied to our work that we are forgetting how to live. I always say this to my husband and I’m saying this to all of you my dear readers now: WE ARE BORN TO LIVE, WE DONT LIVE TO WORK.
• I want to do outrageous or silly or shocking things and I wont give a damn about what other people might say or think. I’m done with worrying. I want to live life without worrying what others reaction might be. This includes wearing clothes that I feel pretty enough to wear and not worrying what others might think about my huge belly. I will smile a lot and that will be me, proving that I dont give a fuck about what you think.
• I want to have my back coverered with ink. Life is too short to live life with hesitations and regrets. I am done worrying and regretting.
That’s it for now. I find this post quite liberating to tell you honestly. Just the fact that I am trying to quit worrying makes me happy. So yeah, there goes my list. How about you, what are your future plans to convince yourself that you are really REALLY LIVING?
Well, at least you’ve had your fun before the pregnancy. A lot of mothers never even get to experience adventure and spontaneity and LIFE because they had their babies so young.
That is to say, having a baby is still going to be quite a joyful experience for you guys, but it’s just obviously going to be different haha.
Good luck with your pregnancy! You sound like you’re going to be a wonderful mother.