i walked into the room uncertain of how my day will be.
afraid of things, of people, of outbursts
i see you sitting in the corner, observing.
i love how your eyes crinkle when you smile.
i love how you went out of your way just to pass beside me and say "good day".
i love how you carry your [...]

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ayaw ng masaya

Sa buhay natin (oo kasama ka!) hindi lahat ng feeling e sarap o kaya naman paghihirap. Kadalasan ay combination of both.
May isa akong friendship na itago na lang natin sa pangalang Pilar Pilapil.
Always happy sya as in. Hindi tlaga magkamayaw sa kasayahan ang friendship kong ito.
As in everyday, pag nakita ko sya, abot langit ang [...]

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Laitera

Kanina sa aircon na jeep sa Buendia, may nakasakay akong dalawang college student na magkaibigan na masyadong masakit sa tenga kung makadaldal. Parang mga reyna ng jeep, as in sobra talaga sa ingay. Akala ko nga private vehicle ito dahil maka-asta akala mo binili nila ang jeep. Dedma sila kahit na pinagtitinginan sila ng mga [...]

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maikling katanungan

bakit kaya ganon?
habang workmode ang drama ko sa desk ko, bigla akong napaisip ng malalim.
Ano kamo ang gumugulo sa isip ko?
Well.. bakit kaya yung mga delicious na papables ngayon kadalasan gayness? As in, bakit ayaw na ng mga papa nato sa ting mga gels?
As in, napapaisip ako. Oo, malalim. Dahil ang mga ganitong dilemma ay [...]

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Important reminders to lessen stress

Alam na ng lahat na halos mamatay-matay ka na sa pagpapanggap na ok ka pa pag nasa opisina ka. Stress kaliwat-kanan ang nararamdaman mo. Gusto mo ng sumuko pero masyadong madaming bayarin at mga kautangan kaya naman hala sige, kayod kabayo ka pa din (hindi ako ito!) para may swellduhin ka na naman sa sweldo [...]

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a girl can only take so much

I just fucking received a call today informing me that I can’t transfer to the team that I applied for because I still have to render a 30-day turn-over period in my team before transferring to their team and that unfortunately, they need to fill the position ASAP.
What actually pissed me off is the fact [...]

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Current Mood: Gloomy

My feelings usually go down the drain everytime the clouds turn gray. I guess that’s one of the downside of being a sunny person – your cheerfulness usually ends when the sun stop shining.
: (

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Drunk and Drunker

Last Saturday was my birthday. I have the opportunity to live in this sinful world for 27 years and still counting. Thank you Lord.
As for the party? Well, I asked my college friends to go at my place to drink vodka until they pass out. We started at around 3 pm and end by 7am [...]

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Remember by Christina Rossetti

I just can’t help myself from posting this beautiful poem by Christina Rossetti.
The first time I read this was when I was in grade 4 and I love it eversince.
REMEMBER me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by [...]

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un-superficialize me

I always have this fascination with Hollywood celebrities simply because almost all of them look like gods and goddesses from our time. Well, that is if you don’t even know how much procedure they did from top to bottom and in between and how much botox they inject in any part of their bodies (I [...]

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Books i need to buy

Knowing that I am indeed off to BankruptcyLand, I told myself that I’m gonna enjoy every minute of the ride. So here are the lists of some books/series that I am willing to sacrifice my allowance just so I can read them and collect them asap. And yes, I am so excited!!
1. Pride and Prejudice [...]

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Interview. Interview. Interview.

I just had another interview. It sucks big time. It goes something like this:
Can you tell me more about yourself more or less?
More.
No, no, no… I meant can you tell me more about yourself.
Oh. Okay. My name is Alen and I am a rage-aholic. I love beating people up into a pulp. I enjoy blood [...]

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