Lesson learned: If you’re pissed off at anyone in particular, or maybe even your life in general, never ever, ever, ever, ever (ever, ever!) go in front of the mirror and try to be a hairdresser. Inhale-exhale exercise works best.
Nothing says: I HATE MYSELF like cutting your bangs with scissors that you saw in your vanity table. Hay naku, cutting the wrist to show everyone you hate yourself is so 2008.
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sunset or sunrise,
rain or shine,
day or night,
you’re the only thought that pops in mind
when the word Happiness is being described.
Ilove you hunny 
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its the little things that makes me smile
makes me sad
makes me wonder why…
its the little things that makes me frown
makes me cry
makes me laugh out loud…
its the little things that makes my heart flutter
makes me think of things i cant get over
makes me say iloveu over and over…
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sitting in the corner, alone and quiet,
she’s an image of what destruction is.
her gaze pierces your soul, your being.
her smile sends shiver to your spine.
but inside that harsh demeanor and
erratic behaviour is a calmness no one knows possible to possess.
that sudden blink of an eye shows a tenderness not known to mankind.
she is hostile, she is mad,
but above all, she is a free soul.
Run free to the abyss… run for your sanity…
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I took this quiz online and guess what I got:
EROS
Eros is passionate, physical, lustful love-the kind that gives you butterflies in your stomach and a tingling in certain other places. Romantic love that has tremendous passion, physical longing, deep intensity, and intimacy..
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Before having my dinner, an old college friend talked to me through ym.
Here’s how our conversation goes:
Friend: musta?
Me: elo.
Me: eto resign na hehe
Friend: tlga?
ngaun lang?
Me: uu
dec 1 ang effectivity
kapapasa ko lang
Friend: ah
san ka lilipat?
Me: wala pa
sa dec ako maghahanap para january new year new job
Friend: ah ok
bkt nagresign ka?
Me: la lang
burnout na ako
Friend: ah
ilang years ka na din jan?
Me: 5 years
tsaka para makapag explore ng ibang field
Friend: ah good for you
Me: sayang pinagaralan ko kung dito lang ako.
hehe
Friend: sbgy may work nmn si jayson
ano balak mo lipatan?
Me: depende pa
Friend: IT?
Me: la pa din ako actually naiisip kung ano gagawin ko
hehehe
basta alam ko hindi ako masyado matagal mababakante
tsaka confident naman akong matatanggap naman ako agad
Friend: ah
sbgy may work exp ka na
pero di ba mahirap? kc undergrad ka db? pano ka magaaply di k nmn grad?
Tingin mo may makukuha ka kayang ok na work?
Me: indi ko iniisip na undergrad ako. bkit ako magiging hopeless dahil dun?!
kasi kung iisipin ko na undergrad ako la talaga mangyayari sa kin
anyway, diploma lang naman un
i know my skills naman
Friend: sbgy tama ka jan
Me: running for senior na nga daw ako dito
Friend: ah ok
Me: isipin mo yung iba na grad nataasan ko pa diba
and just bcoz d ako grad doesnt mean la ako alam. un lagi iniisip ko
Friend: yabang mo ah/..
hehe
Me: haha
indi ako mayabang
confident lang
Friend: nasasaktan me…huhuh
hehe
Me: haha bakit?
Friend: eh grad ako pero minion pa din ako 
Me: kasi no sino ba magbu-boost ng morale ko kung di sarili ko lang naman din diba
Friend: tinatamaan ako sa sinasabi mo ah..hehe joke
Me: hahaha
ikaw lang naman kasi pumipigil sa sarili mo na mag grow e
Friend: haha
iba nmn kc situation ko
Me: lahat naman ng means nasayo na para makahanap iba work
Friend: di kc ako pwede umalis sa company basta-basta
Me: e kasi kung yan lagi iisipin mo tlagang d ka makakaalis
Friend: ako lang kumakayod sa amin…dami pa gastusin
Me: e pano di ka pa nga nagtatry iisipin mo na agad yung nega stuffs
syempre talagang la ka makikitang positive sa paglipat ng ibang company
ilang beses ko na sau sinasabi na sayang yung skills mo
Friend: alam ko nmn un
hindi lang kasi kadali un, tulad ng sinasabi mo
ikaw, at least may sasalo sau in the meantime…may work si jayson
Me: hahaha
Friend: at wala akong naipon e…dami kc kinukuha sa akin
kuya ko pa pasaway…hindi mapirmi sa trabaho
Me: anong akala mo naman sa kin papayag ako na suportahan lang ni jayson ng wala akong naco-contribute?
Friend: buti nga siya, nakakalipat-lipat
Me: madami naman kami bills no
kuryente, bahay, food, allowance namin, phone/internet, cable, water
Friend: yeah i know
at isa pa nga, inaasahan pa ng parents ko yung health card ko
Me: oh well
Friend: dati nga, nagsabi na ako na baka matanggap ako sa inapplyan ko
kaso pinigilan ako
magpapagamot pa daw sila
Me: siguro iba lang tlaga tau. la naman ako intention na magpatama sau hehe
Friend: hehe
ok lang un
Me: kasi ako yung alam kong makakabuti sa lahat and sa sarili ko in the long run yung laging decision ko
Friend: pero sa ngaun…mejo wala akong direction sa buhay
Me: aw
With all honesty, I never deny my educational status. I studied at PLM and took up BS Computer Science Minor in BS Math. During 4th year 1st sem, I faced a lot of problems involving money, health of my mom and death of my brother. My mom was always on ICU every 2 weeks and all of us thought that she will die during those times that she was being rushed to the ICU. (Thank God, masamang damo yata kaya ayun, magaling na uli hehehe.) My brother died due to a motorcycle accident and I had a hard time moving on and accepting his death since we are very close.
During those times, since my mom is always in the ICU, I go to school without any money. Literally no money. As in baon ako sa utang sa mga kaibigan ko. Try coming to school with only 20 pesos in your pocket which is napupunta lang sa pamasahe and every damn day my evil teachers keeps on demanding that we re-print the proposals we submitted for our thesis. Me and my thesis partner don’t have any pc at home so we both have to endure typing the proposals sa mga computershops sa Taft every damn day. Ask anyone from PLM (na hindi BA ang course! Mejo madali yung course na yan e hehehe) if they experienced staying awake for 3 straight days na ang nap lang is every byahe (to and fro school), lunch or in between classes (give or take 15 minutes) and I assure you almost everyone will say that they did. Norm sa PLM yun e. kaya madaming nababaliw dun dahil even without sleep for 3 straight days, before going to school naliligo pa din.
I decided that quitting school is the best option at that time kahit graduating na ako. Mahirap mag decide and if faced with the same predicament that I’m facing during those times, I bet most of you wont last a day in my shoes. Just think about all the deadlines, all the debts you have to pay, your mom whose life is always on a 50-50 chance of dying/surviving, of the brother you are very close with but you aren’t given a chance to see. It takes a huge toll on someone else’s morale and sanity to tell you honestly.
And so I decided to stay tough. Education can take you to places but thick hide can help you survive.
And for someone to tell me that I can’t reach anything just because I don’t have the diploma to prove to everyone that I am smart, well fuck them because for me, diploma is only a piece of parchment. It may mean four years of hard labor and all niters but at the end of the day, your diploma won’t secure you a job. You should still have your skills, wits, intelligence and confidence to achieve whatever it is you decide. That’s why comments like you cant make it through because you didn’t graduate college affect me, because I know myself, and I know what I am capable of and I know that I am smart enough to learn and understand anything that comes my way… ok except math problems. I failed my integral calculus (hey at least I passed my differential calculus!).
The conversation continues:
Me: yung baby nila bj nasa ospital
Friend: ok na baby nila?
Me: ang alam ko ok na namn daw yung mga lab tests
pero indi pa nalabas kasi nag aantibiotic pa
pero ok naman na daw
Friend: ah confined pa din?
kau…kelan darating si junior?
hehe
Me: uu confined pa din
hehehe working on that
Friend: hala
wala pa din?
Me: ala pa
indi naman ganon kadali gumawa nun no
Friend: baog ata isa sa inyo..hehe joke
Me: indi naman porke sex kayo buo na agad un
Friend: eh kasi
baka puro ka *CIM
Me: and besides nakabuo na kami indi lang maayos nabuo so ala sa min baog
Friend: hehe
joke
First and foremost, to tell someone (even if it’s a joke) who’s having a hard time conceiving that she’s BAOG is definitely not funny. I am not easily offended with jokes but to say something like this to me is simply, simply insensitive. As in. I know God has his plans. We may not have a baby this year or even the next year or not ever but I know God has his reasons why.
I maybe a non-practicing Catholic but I pray to God and I think that being close to him is what matters most. Everyone has their own beliefs and so do I, but the bottomline is that we only have one God and he wants us to trust him always.
Hay naku, i just hate people sometimes.
*Cum in mouth
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Almost all the time that I spend in the office makes me wonder if I’m doing myself a favor by earning money or if I’m simply trying to kill myself because of stress.
I’ve been dying to leave my job for almost three agonizing years and the fact that I have too many bills to pay is the only reason why I am very hesitant to step out the door and leave my job for good.
But sometimes, we reach a certain point when enough is finally enough and no amount of money or position can make us stay anymore. I guess if even a pay raise in this hard economy or even a promotion is not enough to motivate you to stay then it’s about time to pack your belongings, bid everyone hasta la vista and walk out that door and face your fears of becoming unemployed. It’s also about time to believe in yourself that you are good enough to find a new work with better compensations and better benefits and a lot better management and environment to work with.
So after five years of doing the same job, after three years of staying in the same team, I am handing my resignation with my head held high and a smile in my face thinking “I QUIT THIS BITCH!”
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Thank you Lord for the sun that shines so bright.
Pls. dont bring too much rain to us again.
Excessive rain that drowns, that kills, that destroys…
Always give us sun that makes us smile always.
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I always hate rainy seasons.
I hate it when I hear the raindrops falling on my rooftop.
I hate it when I see dark clouds hovering and pouring their heart out
because I always associate rainfall to broken hearts
because the rain for me are tears from someone who feels pain in an unimaginable intensity,
someone with an unrequited feelings, someone with a painful past,
someone who lost someone and cant cope with that someone being gone,
someone who misses some past love and who always remembers the past promises, the memories, the laughter, the ups and downs and
the relationship gone astray,
someone who cherishes every broken vows and is still hoping,
someone who’s always left behind waiting, most of the time for nothing.
I just wish the sun will shine soon.
I want to laugh again and if memories of the past crept back,
I wont be lonely like the clouds but rather be happy like the sun.
So please rain just go away…
Rain, rain go away…
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Nakita nyo na ba to?
WTF?! Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ako o malulungkot habang tinitingnan ang picture na to. Seriously, anong ibig sabihin nito? Na ako si Manny Villar, mapag-bigay na tao, kusang tumutulong, HOY TUMULONG AKO at dahil jan, iboboto nyo ako?
Kung tutulong ka, bakit kailangang may kapalit? Bakit kailangang ipangalandakan?
Nakakalungkot mng isipin pero ganito na talaga ang karamihan sa ugali ng mga tao. Kailangang may kapalit ang pagtulong. Kailangang may pangangalandakan.
Inuuna muna ang kapakanan kesa sa totoong nasalanta.
Kaya nga sana sa dadating na eleksyon, matutuo na tayo sa lahat ng pagkakamali natin. Yun nga lang, sa mga tatakbo, meron ba talaga tayong aasahan?
And now, Im 100% sure that I no longer have faith in the human society.
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Well, what can I say? These girls have the best curves ever. I’ll kill for those legs and abs.
10. Angelina Jolie
Nothing says I AM DAMN CONFIDENT like Angelina Jolie. I am a huge fan of her tiger tattoos and I am thinking of getting one someday. (kung papayag si hubby)
She’s an accomplished actress, a great humanitarian, a goodwill ambassador and a great mother. Being the sexiest woman alive doesnt hurt either.
Although this recent pic of Ang says otherwise. Hmm… maybe she’s just trying to be one of the refugees?
9. Milla Jovovich
I first watched this Ukranian-born model and actress in Blue lagoon 2 and from then on, I love her! She’s the star of the Resident Evil trilogy movie. She’s the epitome of bad-ass and just by looking at her, you can see that you dont need to have any boobjobs to be considered sexy.
8. Leighton Meester
The bitch goddess of Gossip Girl. If you want to have an epic girl-fight, call Blair Waldorf and you will definitely have a good girl fight! Seriously, with a face like you can get almost everything you desire no?
7. Bar Rafaeli
Just look at her. If I have a body like that, I’ll not wear any shirt on ever!
6. Rachel Bilson
She plays Summer Roberts in The O.C. and seriously, she embodies the SIMPLICITY IS BEAUTY quote.
Here she is wearing a simple tank top and denim
5. Mila Kunis
She is the voice of Meg Griffin in the Family guy, she plays the cute girl in Forgetting Sarah Marshall and she plays the young Angelina Jolie who plays the late but beautiful Gia Carangi in the biopic Gia. What more can you ask for?
4. Miranda Kerr
I’d kill for that legs! Plus she’s dating Orlando Bloom and they’re both cute
3. Natalia Portman
I’d gladly go lesbian for Nat because she plays the hottest girl ever (Alice) in one of my favorite movie – Closer and as Anne Boleyn in The Other Boleyn Girl. She’s beautiful, talented and above all she’s smart. Did I mention that she’s smart? Oh well, yeah, she is. She completed her bachelors degree in Psychology in HARVARD UNIVERSITY!
They say that the hair is a girls crowning glory, but she shaved her head in V for vendetta and she’s still hotter than most of the people in Hollywood.
2. Rachel McAdams
Blonde Rachel McAdams
She’s one of the great actress around and she looks good both Blonde and Brunette. She played the queen bee Regina George in Mean Girls, Allie Hamilton in The Notebook and as Clare Abshire in The Time Traveler’s Wife (I just finished reading the book and it’s better than the movie!).
Brunette Rachel
1. Adriana Lima
Look at that eyes. I just love how she looks at you and you melt away. If ever I’ll have a daughter, I will definitely name her Adriana.
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Hindi ko alam kung nabasa ko ba sa bible o nakwento sa kin ng mga magulang ko o sa eskwelahan ko lang narinig ang kwento na to. Basta ang alam ko kahit gaano ako katapang kapag naririnig ko at naaalala ko ang kwento na to talagang natatakot ako.
Ang kwento:
Pag dating ng araw ng paghuhukom, uulan ng apoy. Lahat ng tao na maiiwan sa labas ng kanilang mga tahanan ay mamamatay. Lahat ng tao sa loob ng bahay ay kailangang magtipon-tipon sa isang sulok upang magdasal. Kailangang mag sindi ng isang bendidatong kandila na syang magsisilbing ilaw sa tatlong araw na pag-ulan ng apoy. Kailangang nakasara ang mga kurtina at mga bintana at kung sino man ang titingin sa labas ng bintana ay mamamatay. Maririnig natin sa labas ang lahat ng sigawan, kaguluhan at paghihirap. Mababalot ang mundo ng kadiliman. Ang mga taong maiiwan sa labas ay kakatok sa pintuan at magpapanggap na isa sa mga taong mahal natin sa buhay. Kakatok sila at magmamaka-awang papasukin sila sa bahay dahil sila ay takot na takot. Nakasalalay ang buhay ng mga taong kasama natin sa loob ng bahay sa magiging desisyon natin kung papapasukin ba natin ang taong kumakatok. Ang taong kumakatok ay isang demonyo na nagpapanggap lang para makapasok sa bahay natin, at kung sakaling matukso tayo at pagbuksan natin sila ng pinto, mamamatay ang lahat ng tao sa loob ng bahay.
Siguro kung babasahin nyo yan, hindi kayo matatakot pero sa totoo lang kapag naiisip ko yan lahat ng katapangan ko nawawala. Naalala ko nung bata pa ako napanaginipan kong dumating na ang araw ng paghuhukom at naiwan sa labas ang nanay ko. Kumakatok sya at nagmamaka-awang pagbuksan sya ng pinto. Tinatawag nya ang pangalan ko habang hirap na hirap sya pero kahit nasasaktan ako, hindi ako magawang buksan ang pinto. Yun siguro ang isa sa pinaka masamang napanaginipan ko sa buong buhay ko. Iniiisip ko pa lang nanghihina na ako.
bakit kamo ganito ang sinasabi ko?
Pano alam naman natin lahat nag idinulot sa tin ng bagyong Ondoy nitong nakaraang Sabado. Madami ang nawalan ng tirahan, binaha at namatay. Nabalot ng kadiliman ang kalangitan. Madami ang namatay at nasalanta.
Sa mga nais mag-donate: (from Pinoy Buzz)
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I am not in a good mood today. I look like one of the girls from your highschool years that try so hard to look like a vamp but in reality really look like a geek with eyes magnified or in my case shrink six times. Geez louise, I hate wearing glasses. 
FYI, I’m wearing clear, soft and extended contact lenses. You can use these lenses to sleep but I am not one of those people who sleeps with their contacts on. Simply put, I’m just not used to wearing my contacts for more than 10 hours. With this fact, I should be one of the lucky ones to not suffer any (more) damage to my eyes right?
WRONG!
My cornea got scratched because of my contact lenses and yes – they hurt like a motherfucking painful scratch a cornea will ever feel.
Here’s what happened: Before going to bed and drifting off to sleep, I took the contacts out of my eyes – no problem with that since I am wearing contacts eversince i was in college BUT since I am in an air-conditioned room throughout the day, my contacts dried out AND since I am not a pussy, dry eyes doesn’t scare the shit out of me SO I disregard the fact that dry contacts equals to possibly scratching of the cornea.
Before drifting off to sleep, I can really tell that something is definitely wrong with my right eye. The next day, I still wore my contacts – hey, vanity at its purest baby! – but after an hour, I decided that I can no longer ignore the irritating "sand-like" feeling I have in my eyes so I decided to consult an ophthalmologists to really get into the bottom of whatever it is that’s happening to my eyes.
To make the story short, as I write this entry, I am wearing my trustworthy, multi-coated but not ultra thin glasses until the scratches (thank God their only mild) heals. And I have to put some antibacterial eye drops in my eyes every hour for 24 hours. And yes, I need to wake up every hour to put drops on my eyes – and it stings.
And so I am here in my cubicle, wondering why I shun lubricants for my eyes when it’s the most obvious thing to do and cursing the air-condition we have in the office for drying my eyes and simply sulking because seriously, I look like a geek.
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and so i was minding my own business when this guy dropped something on the floor.
and i was about 10 meters away from him but i can see clearly.
and when he bend over to pick the stuff he dropped,
i was amazed and impressed at what i saw.
for the tightness and the flawlessness of that buttocks
is really, totally undeniably, unarguable.
And he looks mean as he is lean.
And his stubbles nearly a day old.
And he reeks of impatience but when he smiled he seems sweet.
And his charm is equally unattainable as he is as tall as he is ripped.
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and all i can do is stare and drool for i am a married woman.
able to appreciate but not able to participate.
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“….At minsan ay nais mong mapag-isa
dahil nais mong matikman ang nakatakas na kalayaan
at hindi dahil nais mong makalayo
bagkus dahil nais mong maging preso kahit alam mong malaya ka
at hindi dahil malungkot ka sa buhay
o sawa na sa lahat ng nangyayari
kung hindi dahil alintana mo ang kinabukasan
at napapagisip ka sa dadating pa na panahon
kung pano ka magiging malaya ng tulyan
kung wala namang nagkukulong sayo?
at pano mo masasabing ikaw ay isang preso
kung buong buhay mo’y kalayaan naman ang ginagawa mo?…”
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So I failed my project 365… But (with a capital B) that doesn’t mean I will not try again.
Yes my friends, I will try again.
And if I fail (again), hell I will try again! hah!
So tomorrow start of my 365 again. Hopefully I’ll be able to finish this sucker.
So just join me (again) in this sucker. Visit my blog ok?
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Just When You Thought You’ve Seen Awesome, You Meet This:
The Dollhead Mohawk. Ask your barber for it next time.
Birdie Dilemma
Problems come in all shapes and sizes. Such as: fucking Qtip.
Ignore Me Doing This
This little girl finally found something to smile about.
Playtex
Who needs a pacifier when you’ve got toys like these?
Spic and Span
You can always count on grandma to keep the house tidy.
Fanboy
Everybody needs a groupie
The Milkmen
Somebody didn't earn his cow
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Wahahahaha yun lang ang masasabi ko
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